we love thru books and songs

I saw a copy
of Catch 22 in a thrift store.
I picked it up to see
if anyone wrote a story in it.
Empty.
I thought about writing something
for you
and maybe you’d pick the book up
because you thought of me
and the night we first met.
Everything changed that night.

I heard the Last Night
in my headphones
and it hit me,
harder than ever.
You were my reason why.
A promise that I’d be better
someday.
You believed when I didn’t.
But that day
on a dirt road
when I told you
I’d always struggle,
your heart seemed to break, again.

I’m better than I was,
but I’ll never be all better.
At least not in this lifetime.
God’s working on me
and I’m working on me.
You kept me alive
long enough for me to learn to breathe.
That line feels familiar,
like deja vu.
I stayed for you.

A while back
you said J requested a song,
something Ocean.
I wondered if it was Ocean Wide,
I couldn’t tell you though
because I was worried
that it would hurt your heart
or worse,
you’d feel nothing at all.
“We’ll swim in the tears we’ve cried.”

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to be your hero

i dont know how
it became our song
but it did
i wish i could remember

you were sitting one day
on the grass with guitar
in hand and voice soft
was it that song that day

same band different song
different day when you promised
youd keep me safe
never meant to break it

my song now
could easily become ours
but i still love
the first for us

wish i could write
the words here
and have them mean
as much to you as to me

im ready
when youre ready for me
alone i could barely light a match
but together we can burn this place down

 

*In response to Music.
**Note: The last four lines of the poem are not my own, so I want to give credit where credit is due. “im ready when youre ready for me” is a line from Yours to Hold by Skillet and “alone i could barely light a match but together we can burn this place down” is from Heroes Get Remembered, Legends Never Die by Four Year Strong.